Cover Story Good Advice Feature Video Hot Topics

Most Response Blogs


LindsayLo in Heaven (19)
7/26/2007 2:32:05 PM

Dancing Like Nobody's Watching (15)
9/26/2005 3:54:48 PM

little things . . . big pain (9)
10/26/2005 4:20:21 PM

Echoliers Swarm Insight Offices! (8)
3/20/2008 8:52:28 AM

Lost (7)
8/19/2005 4:02:59 PM

Why are you a part of this faith? (7)
7/20/2005 1:19:09 PM

Think You Have Problems? (6)
4/2/2008 2:45:34 PM

Intruder at 10 p.m.! (6)
2/13/2008 6:49:42 AM

The Way Back (5)
9/27/2005 8:43:10 AM

10 Things I Hate About...The Flu (5)
1/8/2006 11:40:33 PM

Blogs by


Dwain

Michelle

Vicki

Jason

Shayna

Brenda

Tom

Omar

Jimmy

iWitness

Lori

View


Archive

Team Blog


Response to Blog




Give your Respose

Letting Go of Me

Dwain
August 25, 2009

I struggle with it. The "it" I'm talking about is letting go of my own will. I hate letting go of my will. Truth is, I'm so into doing what I want, when I want, and how I want, that the very thought of giving my will over to someone I can't see seems almost impossible. Why would I want to do that?, I sometimes think.




I've been me for a very long time--37 years--and being me is killing me. Like a cancerous tumor quietly growing in some dark, unseen cavity of my body, "me" has been growing. I didn't notice him at first, but now he's unmistakable. I fed him with bad decisions and an unwillingness to change. I see him when something upsets me. I see him in some of the things I say and do, in the cold-hearted anger gurgling just below the surface of my life.

Do you feel me? Ever wonder why you do what you do? Ever looked in the mirror and hated what you see? I have. I am.

Recently I was thinking about Jesus, about how totally unlike Him I am, about how much I struggle to give up stuff that I know is hindering my walk with Him. How did Jesus do it?, I wondered silently. How was He able to surrender His entire life to God, all of who He was?

I thought some more about Jesus' life, from His birth to His death. If you look closely, there's one unmistakable thread running through the 33 years that He spent on earth. What's that thread? Jesus consistently surrendered His will to God. He constantly gave up who He was to become what God wanted Him to be? He had to trust that His Father had something better for Him and He did.

Jesus was so close with His Father that He once said, "The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him" (John 8:29). He always did what pleased God--no questions asked. Then, at the end of His life, facing certain death, He said this: "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done" (Luke 22:44). Jesus had grown so accustomed to yielding His will to the will of His Father that even when he faced the possibility of never seeing His Dad again, He still refused to have his own way.

I'M SO NOT LIKE JESUS.

Letting go of our will and yielding to the will of God requires power that we don't have in ourselves. We need God's Holy Spirit to help us to change. I know I do, because I sure feel powerless to deal with--me.



No responses


Add your thoughts:

Name:

Subject:

Response:

  Image
Write the characters in the image above.





Top | Home